it sucks when i dont know where to stand in his life and it sucks even more when im hangin' in dead air, knowin' i can be thrown off anytime..when we're like more thyan friends,but not really,and when we're like lovers when it's really otherwise..darn it! sometimes, i would want to wish i have never known him at all..but at the back of my mind, im still thankful i did..i just don't understand why..and it hurts a lot actually..